Seeking Guidance?

*just woke up*

There's something that's been nagging at my mind for some time now. Something that I used to mention then it died down.

 I'm finding for mentors.

A few years ago I read about the practice of mentoring in certain youth groups in U.S and how it impacted the lives of the youth, and also how the kindness and patience of mentors were passed on when a grateful youth starts to influence the lives of those younger than them after being guided for some time. Then, I read about it again in some old CCG material for church use, and I was like 'This is so cool, why not practice it?"

Then came the thought "But this started in the West. As an Asian (Malaysian to be exact), with a different culture and etc., can this even work over here? Is it needed here or relevant? "

After some time, I noticed that the practice of the elder guiding the younger, as well as mutual encouragement and accountability, is indirectly already in practice--in both my family and my church family as well. It just was not 'official' or 'exclusive', and personally I think making it a 1 to 1 thing has its risks. Previous dependencies on people make me doubt about these kind of close friendships; as much as I want to hear honest assessments of my weaknesses and how my walk with God is, and later be prepared for the big adult world (which is good), I don't want to put people on pedestals, again...and let my life be controlled by how other people think. At the same time, I also have a responsibility to take care and help others who are in need, and to become that I need to come to the end of myself, meaning that with God's help I stop worrying so much and rest.

Right now I'm to do a study on the attributes of God, and how knowing Him corrects my human, super limited perception of God, my worth, and love. :) And I pray that wise & humble mentors will be in my life soon so that I can learn from them.

ps: I'm so done with the title labels. It's so not me! ;)

[blog-wanting fame, +sincerity+don't care what ppl think = authenticity of author]

Inspiration: Who we really are

Many times I tend to forget how should I percieve myself. Either I'm battling with low confidence and doubt, or I  would be all high and mighty up there (many times without realizing that I can be such a snob).

This song helps me to put that all in perspective and realize how small but blessed I am=)

Casting Crowns - Who Am I

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

What is the price of two sparrows—one copper coin? But not a single sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it. ...So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows.(Matt 10:29, 31)

I was truly blessed by this song...How about you?

God bless=)

Revived: A note about the author

NOTE: The author of this blog is very lazy. In fact even though she knows that she expresses herself better through writing than in speech, she's not disciplined to blog regularly, or more precisely, open up to the world.

Problems? Happenings? Joys? If you know her in real life you'll know a little on the surface, but that's about it. No further. She can be too proud to admit her weak spots...even what may be general!

For instance, she would love to tell everyone that she has got a new slider, seek advice when she failed her driving test (on the road), and that she's teaching tuition now.

Or share about the songs that she likes, the experiences that she has.

And...

She's really seeking for a friend, someone who can mentor her and be a friend to her, to replace which that is gone,and someone to be accountable with, who she can confide in with her struggles, and share joys with, and she's glad that there were and are people who have blessed her so much (and that she can't possibly pay back).

She's praying for God to make her desperate and broken enough to stop being that proud, thinking that she can ever survive or live without His grace, and to have life-changing encounters and be on fire for Him.

Meet the author of this blog.

Yup. This author has read about blog gurus telling her to write on a "niche topic" to make this place tick and the comments coming, (that's a good suggestion) but with no sure way to write "how to" topics because she has yet to achieve the advice that she may put down there. Confidence is one thing this author has to work on.

This author can never say that she's humble. She has a prideful spirit that needs to eat a lot of humble pie.

(end of rant)
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No more hiding, no more beating around the bush. What you see should be what you'll get.

I'm back to business.=)