Flashback :)

As I come back to this blog after so long...it's interesting to see how time has passed and how views and stuff that happened change so quickly.

In one of the previous posts I wrote about a so-called "million dollar topic" that frets every high school leaver in Malaysia: What to do after SPM? In that post I ranted about Form 6 Science, Arts, and A-levels, and college. Well, now I've made my choice: I'm in form 6 Arts now, doing the subjects that I initially thought I would find boring--economics, business studies, history. And I love studying 'em, because the new school environment is very nice (and cooling too, since it's in the middle of a village.) My teachers make "keluks" or graphs, equations, writing reports, and presentations (yup tons of that. kinda of like tutorials in college I heard, just that it's still er...school) fun...and my classmates? [heart'em. enough said.]

In that same post I also mentioned that in a new school there's less chance to stand out and contribute to the school...EEAAPP! So false actually. In a few short months, I felt like I've been able to contribute well in school, whether in an active class discussion [btw, the 6R1 I know is a very lively class ;) ], in quietly doing paper cuttings for librarian duty (although reading cuttings about current issues, especially baby dumping can be p-r-e-tty depressing. Maybe another post on that later.) or as the secretary for our Student Council (I'm still very surprised that I was nominated, let alone elected to post. Like wow, I'm so happy for this opportunity;)) . And I said before that I'm waiting until I'm 18. Well...here you have it. A legally 18-year old kid-dult? :)

Ahh, time. :)

Seeking Guidance?

*just woke up*

There's something that's been nagging at my mind for some time now. Something that I used to mention then it died down.

 I'm finding for mentors.

A few years ago I read about the practice of mentoring in certain youth groups in U.S and how it impacted the lives of the youth, and also how the kindness and patience of mentors were passed on when a grateful youth starts to influence the lives of those younger than them after being guided for some time. Then, I read about it again in some old CCG material for church use, and I was like 'This is so cool, why not practice it?"

Then came the thought "But this started in the West. As an Asian (Malaysian to be exact), with a different culture and etc., can this even work over here? Is it needed here or relevant? "

After some time, I noticed that the practice of the elder guiding the younger, as well as mutual encouragement and accountability, is indirectly already in practice--in both my family and my church family as well. It just was not 'official' or 'exclusive', and personally I think making it a 1 to 1 thing has its risks. Previous dependencies on people make me doubt about these kind of close friendships; as much as I want to hear honest assessments of my weaknesses and how my walk with God is, and later be prepared for the big adult world (which is good), I don't want to put people on pedestals, again...and let my life be controlled by how other people think. At the same time, I also have a responsibility to take care and help others who are in need, and to become that I need to come to the end of myself, meaning that with God's help I stop worrying so much and rest.

Right now I'm to do a study on the attributes of God, and how knowing Him corrects my human, super limited perception of God, my worth, and love. :) And I pray that wise & humble mentors will be in my life soon so that I can learn from them.

ps: I'm so done with the title labels. It's so not me! ;)

[blog-wanting fame, +sincerity+don't care what ppl think = authenticity of author]